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[ oh... he really has a type, doesn't he. it's hard not to think of tatsumi, who wants the same for the non-special students of reimei academy. there's a decisive different between him and leona... but their hearts are the same sort, and kaname noses under the beastman's chin the way the other does him sometimes. his quiet, careful affection. ]

Everyone deserves to be happy.

[ something he's often said, and has believed since the first day he found himself listening to tatsumi's words in the catacombs. even playing off any good will as a selfish act doesn't change the fact that it's a driving force in his life.

(there are easier ways to get what he wants. kaname has what he wants at the academy already, and yet he keeps up the same exhausting facade for someone else's sake -- all so that everyone has the chance at happiness, because he loves idols and it frustrates him to hell and back that someone as hard-working as sazanami would only ever be backstage if it kept up. how he could end up there too, because it is a genuine fear, but everyone deserves to be happy.) ]

If a coup is out of the question, because your brother's only an idiot, then that's fine. There's more than one way to change things. But it'll require you to change too, Leona -- survival of the fittest isn't the motto you want to put your strength behind, from one "prince" to another. They're your people too.

[ so if his brother won't look the way he needs to, then leona should. simple as that. he was never posed as a bad person, after all -- just an idiot, and there's nothing wrong with being an idiot. kaname doesn't accept that for himself just yet, but there's nothing wrong with it at all. ]

In other words, if I am ever able to, then I shall lend you a hand. I have experience with such things, after all.

[ cute. he's so cute and leona's so sure that kaname knows that. he could have the entire world on its knees. he's aware there are idols that can do that; one such goes to their rival school, except there is a naivety that makes him endearing. kaname has charisma. probably a little more maturity? or maybe not? but even then, one grows into that sort of thing, so... ]

Yeah, I don't wanna... I don't wanna exile him or anythin'. Besides, his kid is an annoyin' brat but he's good. Better when I'm around him.

[ could be moldable. could be someone he could influence. use? yeah. leona wouldn't be afraid to do that. still, it's easier to do things himself and cheka could grow up into someone with an actual head on his shoulders. by then, leona might have a little gray in his hair. maybe. ]

... think you're already doin' a pretty good job at lendin' a hand. Rather have somethin' else, though.

[ like... his lips... smooch! ]

[ kaname's curiosity is short lived and answered, heart fluttering same as ever and he returns it easily, playing with leona's hair and twirling it around his fingers. you'll have to forgive him this time, though, for not letting it stick past that with a small tug. ]

You always say that. I want to do more. And don't say I "do enough" simply by [ sheesh ] being with you and whatnot. That's true for now, but what of the future?

[ ...

should god will it, what if by next year it "isn't enough" anymore? kaname hasn't thought to put a name to this outside an involvement, but leona is still important to him. he feels safe, relaxed even, when he's with the other, so he wants to do as much as he can in return (to keep that spot safe, to repay kindness due). ]

Say you'll let me. Whatever it is, if I ask how I can help, you'll give me a real answer.

[ ... gosh, he is demanding today. ]

You keep me centered. That's a lot, Yodaka.

[ maintaining a positive outlook is difficult for him, which isn't to say that it's easy for others. but knowing that he could easily lose himself in those doubts and indifference just like he did before would be... awful. simply unforgiveable. he has reasons to keep his sanity and not throw away everything due to some selfish desire to become king. rather, he still wants to be king. he'll prove that he's worth it regardless of where he is in the pecking order.

he grunts at the light tug. the most minor of reactions. it's not like it hurts... in fact he might be okay with it some more........

maybe. easy for kaname to fix the braids if they get loose. ]

Fine. I'll give you a real answer, but you'll have to respect it if even if you don't like it.

[ ... it doesn't feel like a lot, is all. the words remain behind his pursed lips, when really he should just say it out loud -- instead, he twirls leona's hair around his finger and plays with it idly like he would his own. ]

... Very well.

[ he might not like it. it might be hard to respect it. but he is eager to have a real answer, something that might quell the little nagging itch that springs up the way it had around few others. ]

It'll do us both good. 'm not sayin' I always make the best decisions, but I know I make the right ones. Even if they're wrong.

[ wanting the best for the dorm. wanting the best for his people. those are paramount. they'll always be number one priorities. it'd be faster if he were king, but... ]

Think you and your brother would look good in the savanna colors? Lotta golds and browns, fancy beads and stuff. Light enough so you're comfortably warm in the sun but cool in the shade, and I don't think many people dislike the weather. Could stand to rain more though.

[ in other words, just... trust him. kaname huffs softly, unsatisfied but reluctantly accepting -- he had said he would, and so he will. unfortunately. maybe he'll do some stuff behind leona's back but only with the best of intentions in mind, like he does his brother. ]

We're far more used to cooler colors, darker ones and such, but we'll look good in whatever we put on. I at the very least don't mind the thought. It's the amount of skin that you show that's more the issue.

[ it's so much.......... he's never showed so much skin while clothed before......... ]

I suppose you're used to it being raised that way, but it doesn't get warm enough where I lived for that level of it.

[ meanwhile leona's sitting here thinking that too many coverings really ruin the benefit of all that gorgeous sun. he wasn't always a lazy sloth of a lion--- up until finding out that nothing really mattered, he had made it a point to work as hard as he could. to the bone. ]

Better start thinkin' about how you're gonna get used to it, then.

[ he wraps his arms a little more snug around kaname. ]

Or maybe you should think 'bout what might happen if you see a beastman walkin' around your home.

[ oooooh. leona is set on it, huh. he doesn't want to go back to reimei academy for all the world now that he's spent someplace that-- that appreciates him, that's filled with enough people that care about him beyond what he can offer them, that... love him, without a single string attached-- that has his brother, his chest squeezing at the thought of losing that especially.

no. he doesn't want to return to the academy. but taking his brother away from his life there would be wrong, too; his brother enjoys being an idol as much as he does. crazy:b is amazing. they care for him, and HiMERU cares for them. even if... his brother would gladly give it up for kaname, just as he was ready to return that name to him, kaname himself feels guilt at him even now.

this might change next month. but for now, he feels caught. ]

... You'd have to hide these, [ kaname touches the ears fondly, ] and your tail as well. I'm not certain how everyone would react seeing them. The world isn't kind to those who are "different".

[ at least he could meet his brother if he endured the rest of his stay at reimei academy, however choking it would be. maybe he wouldn't be an idol. kaname doesn't know why he is in the first place. but at least he could meet him, and then they could be a family, and... ]

You'd be a handsome model otherwise.

[ ah. leona gently hums, his ears again receiving a touch that sends the smallest shiver down his spine. it feels nice and even better when it's kaname doing it... could he say the same for anyone else who had the pleasure of touching them before? no. only kaname. how dangerous this little idol is; being his one obvious source of emotional stability while being a potential catalyst as well. ]

Eh, if you say so.

[ which would be easy with a little magic. not difficult to conceal his appearance with the tiniest of glamours. it's harder to do it in a world full of mages and non-mages alike who could spot a beastman prince despite his best efforts. ]

A model... ha. Yeah, 've heard that one before. Don't think anyone deserves to get to see me at my best when most only want my favor.

[ he snorts, now wiggling his ears. ]

Unless there's such things as private models. Then I guess I'd do it.

[ for a very select few. mhm, mhm. ]

[ ughhhhh how is this so cute every time he does it... kaname thinks he'd miss seeing them. but he'd have to get used to it, probably, so he'll put his hands over leona's ears to press them down a bit. hmmmm. interesting look. very incomplete. ]

You wouldn't have to worry about others currying your favor, Leona. Models are wanted by all. It's only a job, and they won't have any qualms about dismissing you if you're not able to perform to their liking.

[ from what he understood with narukami... modelling and reimei academy worked off the same sort of standard, so he feels pretty familiar with it. off his hands go the ears and he'll straighten a bit so he can play with the other's hair instead. style it loosely... little flounce here, more over on this side... ]

Your skin tone is rarer for where I live though, so that gives you a leg up... I don't know much about "private models", but I wouldn't want you to become a host or anything like that anyway. It'll be scandalous if we're seen together.

Edited 2023-04-14 21:01 (UTC)

[ what? is kaname saying something? he can barely hear him!!!

just kidding, it's not like he's stuck something in his ears so that he couldn't actually hear anything. he has a good idea of what he probably looks like and it's probably not good. his ears are part of him. they are practically a defining feature? after all, he is a lion and there aren't many outside of the royal family. it's what establishes that kind of hierarchy to begin with, that caste system... embedded in society.

it's less of a factor now, but still one. ]

You mean it wouldn't be scandalous if we were seen together regardless?

[ a mysterious man walking around with a prolific idol? no way that goes unnoticed. ]

[ mmm. it would be, but kaname smoothes his hands down to hug the other instead. ]

An idol isn't allowed to date or fool around. [ well-known by most by now. ] But they're allowed other sorts of relationships. It's fine so long as we're some kind of colleage.

[ ... since surely he'll be doing model work at some point, beyond what he's done. ]

It won't be scandalous unless you put your hand somewhere you shouldn't, [ my ] Leona.

[ huh. well, it's probably the same for royalty but leona's also never cared about those kinds of appearances. if he wants to be scandalous, he'll be scandalous. they'd never think about exiling him--- he's too strong.

anyway. ]

Somewhere I shouldn't? What 'bout you, can you put your hand wherever you want?

[ looking for loopholes. ]

[ that's definitely a difference between them -- leona can't be exiled, he's too strong. kaname can be, because he's weak. ]

Don't be silly, of course that goes for me too. I'm not some sleazy idol who can put his hands wherever he'd like for a joke, Leona. As long as you can accept that this can never be public so long as I'm active, then you can have all of me privately.

[ and, as stated in another time, he's going to be an idol for as long as he can be. ]

Is that fair?

It's fair enough.

[ as long as he can have kaname privately? sure. it's not like leona lacks the ability to be discreet, he simply doesn't like exerting the energy to watch his back. but if it allows him to practically do whatever he wants...?

mmm. he'll allow it. for kaname. ]

Don't think there's anything wrong with a lil' sleaze, ya know? But it wouldn't fit ya. Maybe it would on a loud redhead.

[ if only kaname knew just how special he was... this idiot doesn't even know. but he is satisfied with that answer at least, pecking leona on the lips in a small show of gratitude. ]

I can't even begin to imagine how to practice for such a role. It feels gross just thinking about acting like that... Amagi's impressive in his own way, I suppose.

[ for being able to stand it, since... he isn't really that sleazy, honestly... man. he wishes amagi showed his true face more; it's far more preferable than the one that gets under his skin so easy. ]

... I don't mind if you are though, I guess.

[ be a lil sleazy.... maybe..... leona is, right...? that's why he said that... ]

[ one of the corners of his lips raises before the other one and he laughs--- not one of those sharp, derisive and mocking barks but something warmer and rounder on the edges. nothing cutting, nothing demeaning. ]

I don't need to be like that. Don't need you to think poorly of me or anythin'.

[ he would rather kaname remember leona as someone who could very well be a king. the 'bad boy'. the one who would take the high road by cutting down the supports of the highest one and making it sink to his level. equalize. normalize. ]

I think I've got a pretty good thing going.

[ a return kiss but he lingers longer. god. he's incredibly lucky. ]

[ mm. the lingering kiss is his favorite kind; it stains his lips, his cheeks, his heart with a warmth he feels like he can see in the mirror days after. ]

I could never think poorly of you, Leona.

[ a blessing and a curse. he could never think poorly of those he loved, of those he admired. whatever they do is right and just, whatever they say should be followed; it's as much a token of kaname's affection as it is a lashing rope. depending on how one looks at it. ]

Not everyone gets that treatment, you know. So you certainly must have something good.

[ and that is probably why they are so dangerous together. one feeding an ego, the other greedily consuming that kindness... it's not that toxic. it could be the other way around too. a horrible and beautiful ouroboros effect. ]

Funny, could say the same thing.

[ except kaname is more than good. too good for leona.

a second prince is... always going to be lesser than some big, popular idol like kaname could be.

and if leona could get his way, kaname would have that chance. ]

Mm. You're too cute. I could eat ya up right now.

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🥺 why does food betray us

I WISH I KNEW I SPENT MOST OF LAST WEEK WITH NO ENERGY...

yells at the food that made you sick... i fight it

thank you............

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