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He's a model like me ( she remembers HiMERU mentioning that ) so of course he can use those good-looks of his properly...

( she's fiddling with her phone, one sec... okay! she sends it )

There you go ♪

Edited 2023-02-09 22:56 (UTC)

[ he takes out his phone in a hurry, waiting for narukami's text to come through, and ]

[ ........................................... ]

-- What have you done to HiMERU?! Revert these changes immediately! You're ruining his good image, you dunce! How dare you mar him like this! HiMERU isn't some-- some--

[ he's searching for words he doesn't know exactly what he's looking for but-- ]

-- Some gravure model you can just do what you'd like to! There was nothing wrong with the original image!

[ fuck it he's gonna try and her phone back

... seems more personal than just about his brother, though. ]

( oh wow gee guess who is taller And faster And stronger than him--

it's her, she's raising her phone over her head )

Oh, calm down, Yodaka-chan! It's just a joke! ( why is he so worked up about this...? sure, HiMERU probably wouldn't find it very funny either, considering he wants to have such a clean image as an idol...

she'll move away from him, let's not make a scene wherever we are. did they even leave the house yet. i haven't been paying attention. whatever. ) I'll send you the right one next, alright? Ugh, you're no fun at all...

Also ( pushes him gently with her elbow ) there is nothing wrong with gravure models! I do gravure too, you know!

( yeah this was important to add on )

[ they have to have left. i'm not letting HiMERU have a moment to find his little brother fighting for his titty rights.

but at her word and gentle elbow, he'll step back, half-crossing his arms and keeping his phone held aloft in his hand. kaname's still tense, still pissed, and even when he does get the right image sent to his phone he feels irritation broiling beneath his skin. ]

... It suits you. You're elegantly long, so I'm certain you make for quite the attractive centerpiece in a magazine filled to the brim with other objects of adoration.

[ there was no reason for him to put it like that, really. ]

( arashi tenses up, staring at him--maybe so, but there is no reason for him to put it like that, and she has the air of a cat with its hackles raised

before she turns and walks faster, exhaling sharply. )

That was a gravure shoot too, just so you know! ( she's pretty sure. it's pretty in line with the other shoots she's had, view wise. calendar photos. ) I'm sure tons of people loved HiMERU-chan as a centerpiece too!

( was it for a magazine? fuck it she doesn't remember, she just remembers asking tsumugi for the data and-- someone else was there, but the face won't come to her, the name won't rise to her tongue, and she makes a small frustrated noise at that as she turns down another corner. better catch up! )

[ he inhales sharply and starts after her, gripping his phone tightly. ]

Shut up! HiMERU isn't the type of idol -- HiMERU doesn't do stuff like that! HiMERU is a squeaky clean existence, who would never debase himself in such a way for the public eye! I'm certain it was just... it was just to show off summer fashion, or something like that!

[ but not as some kind of-- calendar shoot, even if it that's what it looks like, what kaname can so easily imagine hanging on someone's wall and he flushes. ]

Get back here, Narukami! Don't you dare leave me behind!

[ ... not when he knows, without a shadow of a doubt, that if he's left to his own directions, he'll lose his way. ]

( oh

it's okay, he doesn't have to go far, because arashi stops short around the corner at "debase himself" and turns around to face yodaka. )

Are you calling all of my hard work debasing myself!? Sure, most of the time it ended up being work I didn't really like--if I'm going to show off my looks, I'd rather do it as a woman, not what everyone else sees me as, but it's still work I put my everything into! It's what gotten me this far in the modeling world, and it's something Knights still does! Sorry that you aren't elegant enough to get work like that, Yodaka-chan! But that doesn't mean you get to say whatever the hell you want about work you could never dream about being given!

( oh, she started yelling. arashi forces herself to relax her hands (just when had they turned into fists? when had her palms started to hurt from her nails?) and sighs, shaking her head.

to clear it. to calm down. to-- )

You know, I don't actually need your help with picking out fabrics, so why don't you just run back home like a good little boy and go back to doing whatever the hell was sooooo much more important than answering your door the first time I knocked?

Edited 2023-02-10 00:00 (UTC)

[ he takes an involuntary step back at her raised voice, that same fear flashing across his face from the time they reunited, and he knows that shrinking won't help ease her or her fury but he does it without thinking anyway, pressing his phone against his chest and his other hand going with it as a tremor wracks his body. ]

I... [ it infects his voice, just a waver, small and quiet compared to narukami's own. ] I was just... drawing, that's all. I was just drawing.

[ he hadn't wanted anyone to see, not until he was done -- but that's not important, it's just the first thing that comes out. it's different than the indignation he might have displayed before, and he takes another step back. kaname doesn't want to leave. he still has things to ask her, as stupid as it is. ]

... Narukami, let's... just forget it, alright? You're right, I haven't been called upon to do work like that -- despite my age, they've yet to ask me to pose in such ways. HiMERU... I'm simply a fan of him, so I became heated. That's all. I hadn't meant to be so harsh.

[ don't leave him, don't abandon him. don't hate him. it would make living together awfully complicated. they have to get along. so his brother doesn't worry. so suou won't hate him more than he does, or than he will. ]

( it's not so hard to live with people who don't understand you, but she has vastly preferred the dormitory to her own home.

so even if she's mad at yodaka, even if she's hurt, she won't make things awkward. she'll smile and act like they're perfectly good friends, especially in front of his brother, because he was nice enough to offer her a place to stay. he could have just kept it to him and yodaka--no one would blame him, and she expected that, too--but he still offered.

all that she's done for them? so far, all she's done is make at least one of them upset...

she shakes her head again, but it's still not at him. what is for him, though, is her sigh and gesture for him to follow her. it'll be quiet while they keep on to the nearest market, but eventually, arashi will pipe up: )

Sorry for blowing up at you, Yodaka-chan. ( and she sounds like she means it, because she does. she, of all people, doesn't want to be hated... her voice is still a little strained, her posture tense, but she's making an effort, like always, to smooth things over, to make it all okay again. passable, at least. ) I'm not a very good senior, am I? Haha...

( another pause, and: )

What were you drawing? You don't actually have to tell me, but like, I'm curious.

[ happily that she can, but kaname can't. so he's thankful, quietly so, that she gestures and he keeps a step behind her, eyes elsewhere than the path ahead. ]

... You're scarcely older than me, Narukami. [ she's no senior. he's still a little subdued, controlled in a quiet way. less scared sounding, but he isn't trying to say much. ] You sound as if you have twice as many problems, though.

[ unfiltered as ever. and... maybe not twice as many, since kaname feels as if he has every problem in the world on his shoulders -- but at least some of them have a different form here. he's so tired of pretending to be perfect, but what else can he do for his brother? it's because they're siblings that... ]

... Nothing really. I like to draw people and give them stories. I once drew Tatsumi-senpai as what I thought would be his ultimate form, if he was able to achieve it, and he was delighted.

[ or he thought it was funny, anyway. kaname wonders if he still has that silly square of paper. it isn't like he has it himself. ]

So things like that. I've also been drawing things to practice needlework with, such as flowers and their companions. It's easier to visualize on paper beforehand.

( a year ahead is still a year ahead, yodaka-chan, just like a month is still a month. it doesn't matter if they're supposed to be the same age in her time: he's two years behind her in his current existence, so there.

the unfiltered comment makes her nose scrunch in distaste—what an awful comment—but she ignores it, letting it dig into her heart in silence instead of retorting and letting it in further. )

That's awfully cute of you! I didn't expect that. ( stories and needlework, huh... ) When did you start sewing?

... Recently. I like doing things with my hands.

[ drawing... needlework... cooking... he's found out he really likes it, and it'll be useful, maybe, to know how to sew stuff, to cook, and drawing is something he already knew. ]

I felt it would be practical to learn how to sew, so it isn't cute. Alright? Needlework is simply more fun than... other practices.

[ because it's nice. seeing people's faces light up when you give them things. ]

I get it—I was trying to pick up knitting pretty recently.

( she can already sew, but knitting is different... maybe she should start back on it here? but spring is on its way.... )

You can help me with sewing these up then. ( no better time to practice. and, without giving him time to say no, she turns to grab his hand and pulls him along. ) Shopping time~!

( or as "shopping" as shopping can be here, as she steps into the throng of the market with him. her easy-going chatter hints she spends a lot of time here—honestly, the collection of things in their house and especially her room has been growing, so that's probably no surprise... )

If you see anything you like, don't hesitate to go for it, okay? ( this is Their shopping trip... ) This is the part where I'd say, "it's all on me!" but they don't really use money here, do they... I've got stuff to trade though ♪

[ he makes a noise at suddenly being pulled along, but his hand closes on hers and he lets narukami take the lead, half-listening to the prattle and thinking of how... lived in, narukami's room is, compared to his own. he can't remember what his childhood room looked like now. they weren't given a space in that place. reimei academy gave them private rooms, but it was already furnished; every room looked the same, save for tatsumi's.

kaname looks at the stalls as they pass and can't even begin to think of what he'd need, much less want, for his own decor. ]

... No, I'm fine. I really don't need much; what I have is enough.

[ anything else would come from others' gifts, he supposes. things that made them think of him. or things they think he would need. in the end it comes down to another's thought, not his own. ]

Bzzzt! Wrong answer. Your homework today is to find one thing for your room.

( now she's assigning homework. )

Okay? ( ...♪ ) Like, if that's too hard for you to accept doing, then... think of it as a gift from me, to make up for earlier.

( for getting mad. and for debasing HiMERU. but mostly the getting mad part. )

[ ...

well, he won't tell her which he's going to be choosing as his option, but at least with some sort of instruction he can look at the wares with a bit more of an eye. ]

I'll keep an eye out then. [ ... ] Is it alright if I get something for my brother too?

[ since. HiMERU's room is probably no better, and kaname wants to find something matching. ]

I don't see why not! He'll love it if it's from you.

( he absolutely adores yodaka, after all. )

...He's soooo cute about you, ( she adds, looking over some fabrics. ) You know when we had that party at the tavern a few weeks ago? He barely kept his eyes off of you. We talked a little bit about you, too—all good things, I promise.

( this red is nice, but the feel of it is a little... she passes over it, how about this white...? if it's just for accents it should be fine...? )

And you're like, so cute about him. ( glancing over, casual, casual, quiet— ) The first time you ever met each other was on the island, right? No wonder you two are so head-over-heels for one another! In like, a family-sense.

( this isn't even about what yodaka told her. this is about what HiMERU's let slip. )

[ he'll be helping with the sewing on it, too... he doesn't know how well he'll do, in truth -- the cross-stitch he's been doing is a lot different than putting together fabrics -- but confidence will surely lead him through. besides, it's sort of fun to just look at all the colors and patterns, the feel them.

he flushes at the beginnings of narukami's talk, though, biting a grin threatening to split his face in two as he very much focuses on the task at hand. he had? ah, of course he'd caught HiMERU's eye every now and then, but to be watching the whole time...? kaname pushes his hair behind his ear, the shorter strands falling despite his effort, and his hand lingers on his warm cheek. ]

... Mmhmm. We'd only spoken over the phone before that, [ but he doesn't seem any less happy, ] so I was... rather surprised by how alike we looked. I was happy, though. Since I knew we were brothers.

[ it's different than how narukami's concerned by how alike they look. kaname's enthralled. in love with it. proof, physical proof, that they're brothers -- and he stills as he thinks of the way HiMERU had looked at him when kaname had mentioned their relation, how he hadn't thought the same at first sight, how he'd been asked to prove it...

... but it turned out okay, didn't it? he presses his lips together, shaking his head. it turned out okay. they'd held hands and gone to the church, they'd talked and gone home, they'd made dinner together and-- there had been a lot of tears, but kaname had been tired and hungry and exhausted in a thousand ways all of them having to do with the man who'd carried him to their temporary home. but it was fine.

it was fine, it's fine, it's fine. ]

... He's far more affectionate than I thought he'd be, [ a little hesitantly. ] He always seemed... more distant on the phone, far busier. My brother wasn't one to waste time or words if he could help it, but he did always listen. No matter how long I talked, he listened.

[ kaname just can't pinpoint, exactly, the cut off times. when he became too pushy, right? too affectionate? it happened here, too -- and he obeyed the commands immediately, tucking away every scrap he still had to give to his brother. for another time, for never. ]

Maybe it was just our distance that'd been the problem. And the island itself, of course -- I don't think I'll be able to monopolize my brother as much as I did prior.

You live together, so you'll be able to monopolize him plenty.

( yeah, his brother will probably be out doing his old man activities, but he gets to wake up every morning and see him; the nest isn't so big that they won't see each other in passing; they have meals together; and they can say good night, too. it's wonderful. )

How does this feel? ( passes over a sample... ) I like the thickness--good for winter and it'll be stiff enough for a suit, I think ♪ You're gonna look so dashing, Yodaka-chan.

I'm going to be laughed at, [ he corrects, but feels it anyway.

it's fine. he slides up his sleeve, since narukami knows what lies beneath it anyway faint as they are compared to amagi's own, and rubs the fabric against it, humming softly. ... he would be able to monopolize his brother at home, but should he? kaname'd done his best to keep from being overly clingy, even at the risk of seeming uncertain and shy, but... it really was too tempting.

like he's six rather than sixteen, wanting to be spoiled by the older brother he loved so much, so easily.

... ]

It's fine. I'd like something softer on my skin, but there isn't much you can do with suit material in that way. Do we really have to do hearts?

Valentine's Day has no other motifs, so yes.

( feathers is another choice, for cupid's wings, but those would look worse than hearts, and there's no way she Isn't putting him in some sort of pattern. it's trendy. maybe it's a little too mean, but on the other hand, maybe it isn't. )

How often did you two call? What did you talk about? Oh, if that's too personal, just disregard it—I love gossip, but I'm not like, a snoop.

( ? yes she is )

[ she came back to it. kaname makes a face at her questions and her assertion, huffing like he isn't planning on answering, and sets the fabric aside to try another. this one... is nicer, he's handing it to her. ]

Daily. He asked how my work was going, and I would tell him about my day. Sometimes we would talk briefly about other things, if I had the mind to ask, [ if he had the courage to broach topics that weren't just business, ] but for the most part... it wasn't anything personal at all.

[ ... not particularly close, for all he crows about it to HiMERU himself. surely his brother knows. has known. ]

I loved talking to him, though. [ quieter. ] Even if it was only that. Even if it was just through texts, some days. I liked hearing his responses.

[ knowing someone was there. wanted to be there. ahh, it's too bad he doesn't remember. ]

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